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  Betting Bad

  Cathryn Fox

  Contents

  Copyright

  1. Tyler

  2. Sara

  3. Tyler

  4. Sara

  5. Tyler

  6. Sara

  7. Tyler

  8. Sara

  9. Tyler

  10. Sara

  11. Tyler

  12. Sara

  13. Tyler

  14. Sara

  15. Tyler

  16. Sara

  17. Tyler

  18. Sara

  19. Tyler

  20. Sara

  21. Tyler

  Epilogue

  Afterword

  The Playmaker

  About Cathryn

  Also by Cathryn Fox

  Copyright

  Copyright 2017 by Cathryn Fox

  Published by Cathryn Fox

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  1

  Tyler

  I might have just spent a long eight years in state prison for gun running, going up against some of the cruelest bastards—lifers with a license to kill and the freedom to use it—but I had no idea what real fear was until this very moment.

  I slow my bike, the roar of the engine settling to a soft rumble between my legs as I brace my feet on the cold ground below me and stare down the dark, rain-soaked street of Middletown Chicago. It’s late fall, but it’s not the damp, frigid night air that’s turning the blood in my veins to ice. No, it’s the thought of confronting my family again and the girl I left behind. How can I possibly face the deep-seated disappointment in their once proud eyes?

  I can guaran-fucking-tee there won’t be a single law-abiding citizen in my Westside neighborhood who’ll be happy to see known criminal, Tyler Barrett, riding back into town. And the local gang? The Phantoms. Well, they’re smart enough not to fuck with someone under the protection of Deacon, the guy who took me under his wing on the inside, and who still runs the streets on the outside.

  At least I think they are.

  I swallow against the bile punching into my throat, and as my heart thunders in my ears, I steal a glance over my shoulder, take in the long stretch of pavement at my back. A restless energy grips my throat, every instinct I possess urging me to turn my bike around and get the hell out of Dodge.

  But I’ve come too far to turn back now.

  I face forward and rev my bike, but not even the sound of the engine splitting the night apart can chip away at the glacier expanding inside me, squeezing the air from my lungs. It guts me, hollows me out inside to know I failed everyone I’ve ever cared about. That I threw away a college education and lost my football scholarship at Northwestern to a pair of handcuffs and a sunset-orange jumpsuit that paled over the years. I was supposed to make something of myself. Instead I found myself behind bars for eight long years, which makes this dangerous, gang-plagued neighborhood look like a goddamn Disney movie.

  But you know what? I’d do it all again. Fuck yeah, I would. If going to state prison and fighting every goddamn day for my life meant protecting my baby brother’s future, I’d do it all over in a heartbeat. No questions asked.

  My phone pings and I slide my hand into my jacket pocket. I swipe my finger over the screen and read the one-word text from Justin. He’s not much of a talker, but when he speaks, we all listen. By we, I mean the five of us who banded together for security and protection under the umbrella of Deacon. Even though I grew up in Phantom territory, Deacon took me in. Probably because I got in the way of a lifer ready to take him down. I hadn’t realized it at the time. I saw the guy coming at me with a shiv, and fought back. His real target was Deacon, who’d been working out behind me, completely unaware. I’d avoided gangs my whole life, but that was no longer an option on the inside. After that incident, Deacon took us newbies in, and while he ran the show behind bars and had an army at his back, the five newbies within the group considered ourselves a brotherhood: no judgment, no censure. For the last year we’d all been living in a rundown place in south Illinois, none of us ready to face our demons after doing time. But like an omen with a vengeance, the old house burned to the ground a few weeks back and we knew it was time to return home. Now here I am, my parole over, trying to figure out how to face my family and re-enter a society leery of lawless ruffians.

  I glance at the text. Good?

  I scoff. Isn’t that just like Justin? He’s the toughest guy I know, yet always has a knack for knowing when there’s a shitstorm going on inside of me. But I feel the pain of his return every bit as much as he feels mine. While the five of us were all tight, Justin and I were the closest. Cell mates on the inside. Brothers for life on the outside.

  Yeah, you? I text back.

  Yeah.

  The light dims on my phone and I stare at it until it goes black, much like my mood. I shove it back into my pocket and twist the throttle to set my bike into motion. I pass the familiar sights, the stores with their windows barred, on lockdown for the night. My gaze runs the length of the impenetrable steel. No one gets in. No one gets out. A fine shiver moves through me. Damned if I don’t know that feeling all too well.

  I peer into the corners and dark alleyways I used to steer clear of in my youth. No way could I risk getting in to trouble. Now, well, none of that shit matters. Why would it? I mean, it’s not like any of the motorcycle gangs can take away my future. Nope, I did that all on my own. Well, sort of.

  I take a trip down memory lane as I pass through Main Street and turn down the road leading to my childhood home. We might not have had much when growing up, but we always had each other. Dad bailed shortly after my sister was born. Apparently, he couldn’t handle having a child who was legally blind. Fucking asshole. I was only ten when I caught the tail end of his car rounding the corner, disappearing from our lives forever.

  I might have been the oldest of four, but because I was just a kid, I couldn’t help the family out financially. There were times Mom worked up to three jobs to put food on our table and keep us all on the straight and narrow. She scraped and saved to keep us in sports and get my visually impaired kid sister the care she needed.

  My fingers take that moment to itch, my mind tripping back to the very specific trade I chose to pursue in
prison. I left a nine-year-old little girl at the time of my incarceration, one who needed her big brother, and while learning braille won’t make up for the past, I’m hoping it will guide us toward a better future.

  I idle down my bike and pull into my driveway, the beating heart of my childhood residence rising up before me. Home sweet home. My stomach squeezes when I see the lone light on in the living room. Not much has changed since I left. Yet nothing will ever be the same again. My boots hit the ground with a thud, and I hike up my backpack as I walk quietly to the front door. I knock like a stranger, and the sheer wrongness in that is like a fist to the gut. From behind the once white lace curtain, the frayed edges burnt yellow from the summer sun, I see movement, hear the rustle of slippers on the aged wood floors.

  I suck in a quick breath and hold it. I’m the last person my mother expects to find standing on her stoop—of that I’m certain. When I left here all those years ago, I told her not to visit. She had three kids who needed her attention more than me. At least that’s what I told her. But the truth was, I couldn’t handle the disappointment ghosting her eyes every time she looked at me.

  From behind the pane of glass, her blue eyes widen, a mixture of grief, sorrow and happiness playing out like a gut-wrenching slideshow. It wraps around me, squeezes my ribcage like a vice, and all I want to do is lay down in it, curl up in my breathlessness until all the bad memories are nothing but a distant blur.

  I freeze at the click of the lock opening, but suck in another fast breath to pull myself together. Fuck man, I need to ground myself in the moment. I’m back home and when that door opens, I’m going to face off against my mother, not some mean, ruthless prison guard who gives all of zero shits about his inmates.

  “Mom,” I say as the door yawns open, the warmth of the house spilling out into the night but doing little to push back the bone-deep cold inside me.

  “Tyler.” Tears fill weary eyes as she opens her thin arms to me in a welcoming embrace. I wrap her in a hug, and choke back the pain clutching at my throat. “How…when?” she asks, her shaky voice rumbling against my pounding heart as I hold her tight.

  I grit my teeth to keep my shit together and inch back. Since the how and when don’t matter, I say, “It’s good to see you.”

  She goes up on her toes to cup my cheeks, the gesture taking me back to my football years, when she used to be proud of me. “It’s good to see you, too.” We both stand there immobilized, neither knowing what to do, what to say. This moment might have been a year in the coming, but it feels so surreal, like I’m having an out of body experience. I can’t help but want to pinch myself to see if I’m dreaming.

  Breaking the awkward silence, Mom shakes her head and says, “Come in. Come in.” She steps back and the familiar scents of home and hearth hit harder than a guard’s baton to the kidneys. I steal a glance around, and my gaze settles on the old chrome table where I used to do my homework. I shrug my backpack from my shoulders and my mother’s gaze slides to it.

  “Are you…staying?” she asks quietly, like she’s battling the emotions inside her.

  “Is it okay?” The air feels tight in my lungs as I wait, hating what I’d put her through. If she tells me to leave, walk out the door and never return, I wouldn’t blame her.

  She blinks up at me, a deep weariness about her. “Of course it is, Tyler. This is your home. It’s always been your home.”

  I exhale the breath I’m holding. “I have a few things stored at a friend’s place. I’ll have the box shipped here if it’s okay.” I didn’t accumulate much after prison, just enough to help me get by at my job. Justin tossed my things into his truck before I left, and is holding them until I’m settled.

  “Yes, have them shipped,” Mom says.

  I scrub my chin. “How is everyone?” I ask, even though I already know. I might have been locked up, but I always had feelers out, making sure my brother kept good on the promise he made to me the day I stood before the judge. Even from behind bars, I made sure he kept that vow. I might not have been here to give him a personal beatdown if he veered off track, but I had plenty of friends who would step in and do it for me.

  Mom takes my hand and guides me to the table. She feels so thin and frail. My heart hitches. She’s obviously been working too hard, and I can’t forget that my incarceration has taken its toll on the once vibrant woman. No, I can’t ever forget that. But I have to somehow find a way to make things right and exist in this world—this family—again.

  Mom fills the kettle with water. “Tea?” she asks.

  “Sure.”

  She drops one leafy bag into each mug and takes the seat across from me. We’ve always been so comfortable with each other. Now, not so much.

  “How are you, Mom?”

  “I’m fine, Tyler. I’m working down at the Redman’s pharmacy, and sometimes I pick up an extra shift here and there at Save Easy Foods. Both are right on the bus route.”

  “How’s everyone else?”

  “They’re all good kids,” she begins, but I get what she’s really saying. They don’t need my kind of trouble.

  I try to ignore the sinking sensation in my chest. “I’m not here to disrupt their lives. I’m just trying to get my life in order.”

  “I know…” An awkward pause and then, “That’s not what I meant.” She sucks in a breath and smiles as she lets it out slowly. “Let me try again. Gracie is in her sophomore year of high school. She wants to be a writer. She’s such a good student, Tyler, and has an incredible imagination. I’m so proud of her.”

  “I am, too,” I say. “How’s Alex?” Alex is the second youngest, and he was only twelve when I left. The tears in his big blue eyes, the way he clung to me and screamed bloody fucking murder when they took me away still haunts me.

  “Alex is in his second year of college. Penn State.” She frowns and glances down, like what she’s about to say next will slay me. “He’s on a football scholarship, but he’ll be home for Thanksgiving next month.”

  My heart fills with pride for my baby brother. To know he picked up where I left off and stepped up to be the man the family needed, nearly makes me fucking sob.

  “That’s great, Mom,” I say, and truly mean it. She lifts her eyes, and I take in the fine wrinkles that weren’t there years ago. “And Lucas?” I ask. Unlike the rest of us, Lucas never was much of a student. He preferred to use his hands over his brains, and that’s all well and fine—except for him, idle hands brew trouble.

  “Lucas is working in Mr. Johnson’s service bay. He’s saving, and hoping to open his own shop someday.” The warm smile that comes over her face is enough to wipe away every ounce of pain inflicted on me these last nine years. I did right by Lucas, and that’s all I ever wanted.

  “Is he helping you out financially?” I blurt out without thinking.

  She frowns, and looks down quickly. Fuck. I’ve insulted her. Mom is a proud woman, and I’ve been home all of two minutes and managed to make her feel like shit.

  “I don’t want his money, Tyler. I can take care of my family.”

  “I know, but he’s still living here,” I say, changing tactics. “He should at least be paying room and board, right?”

  She stands. “Tyler—”

  “I’m sorry,” I say quickly and stand with her. “You’re right. It’s none of my business.” I shouldn’t be walking into my mother’s place and trying to step into the big brother role I once had, but truthfully, what Lucas does is entirely my business. Except my mother doesn’t know that. “I’m just tired. It’s been a long day.”

  The kettle boils and she turns it off. “Why don’t you go get some sleep? Your bed is still waiting for you, or you can climb into Alex’s old bunk next to Lucas, if you want the company. We can have tea tomorrow.”

  “Okay.” I step back up to my mother, and drop a kiss onto her cheek. I want to talk more, ask about Sara. No matter how long she’s been gone from my life, I’ve never stopped loving her. God, we had such big dream
s and hopes. I hope she moved on without me, made a life with someone else. It would have been wrong, selfish of me to ask her to wait. I’m a man with a record now, with little to nothing to offer her. A good girl like her shouldn’t be associating with a convict, and I drove that fact home when I pushed her away, refused her visits. She needed to get on with her life as much as I needed her to.

  I clamp my mouth shut to prevent myself from asking questions I don’t really want the answers to. I’m not sure I’m ready for any more kicks to the nuts tonight. I came back with a plan to work, volunteer, and take care of my family. Associating with a known criminal like me won’t do a nice girl like Sara any good, and for me, well, the lost look in her eyes would surely tear my heart clear from my chest. “G’night.”

  I bend forward a bit, like I’d just taken one too many hard hits from a pissed-off inmate and climb the stairs quietly, my siblings fast asleep this time of night. I make a quick trip to the bathroom, tug off my shirt, and splash water on my face. I find a new toothbrush and claim it as my own, then make my way down the hall.

  The floorboards squeak, and I wince. I pass by my room, my steps slowing. The light from the hall slants against the wall, and the sight of my bed, my trophies sparkling on my dresser like a shrine, twists me up inside. Mom left everything like it was, like I would eventually come back and be the same boy who’d left. But I’m not that boy at all. I never will be again.